Now that I know I have this problem it is not horrible as I thought it to be .
Now I know exactly the areas I struggle . I can pull myself together getting ready and thus avoid the panics that otherwise occured so frequently. I don't have to feel bad when I can't do some thing. I can calm myself and start doing it from a different angle. Yes, I am working on it.
Two days before I was able to place a phone call using the coin box in one go, for the first time in my life . Yes, You can't believe it . Can you ?
I knew what will be coming and I prepared myself before I started. I read the instructions carefully and progressed remembering to concentrate on the sequence. And there I was talking through it. A week Before it was a horror.
With so much effort I make myself do multiplication and sums along with Siva . When he does his Brain gym I also do the mental sums and Swetha gives the questions. I found out my old calculator and we take turns to check our sums. Yes, I can do it.
It feels like I had been treading through a dark path which seemed never ending and now suddenly I realise , I have reached midway . I can see a glimmer of the sunlight and the path that lay ahead is beautifully lit. The only thing I have to do is keep my pace and walk slow and steady. Just like the tortoise in the story I told Swetha yesterday.
I found you! :)
ReplyDeleteYes, you can do it. once the horrible panic and anxiety gives way to understanding and acceptance, then the horrible things lose their grip.
hi Tiffany , the most relieving thing is you have the freedom to explore yourself without expectations. And that feels great. Once again thanks for letting me know. :-)
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